I've always been an introvert...

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 03:10:31 GMT

How i met phil

How did you meet your significant other?
Answer all the questions HONESTLY and re post as "How I met _____"

1.) Where did you meet?
inside a blinking minivan that belongs to Clark University. (we worked the same lame job- driving around students who are afraid of Worcester at night)

2.) Who introduced you?
I guess that would be our boss Diane

3.) What was the first thought that went through your head when you met?
Is he gay? also ...I wonder how that lip ring would feel in my mouth

4.) Do you remember what he/she was wearing?
not exactly but I would guess a dress shirt over a wife beater w/ jeans and converse

5.) Where was the first place you kissed this person?
upstairs at a party on some kid's bed in front of a bunch of strangers... I was drunk and i slurred I LUVvvv Men in SweateRrs (he was wearing a gray sweater) and we just started making out.

6.) How long did you know this person before you became a couple?
3 months

7.) How did he/she ask you out?
we had been out a few times... and we had an awkward conversation over facebook about what our proper relationship statuses ought to be ha ha ha... and that first night at the party he was like HEy YOU- be my girlfriend ha ha (drunkness)

8.) Do you have kids with this person?
not just yet lol I <3 pill

9.) Have you ever broken the law with this person?
maybe....

10.) When was the first time you realized that you really liked this person?
I've really liked him as a friend since the second we met

11.) Do you get along with his/her family?
more or less... i think his dad thinks i'm a dumb twat but hes wrong so its okay

12.) Do you trust this person?
of course

13.) Do you see her/him as your partner in the future?
whatever will be will be

14.) What is the best gift she/he gave you?
a beautiful bunch of sunset orange roses

15.) How long have you been with this person?
ehhhhhh... on and off sine November

16.) How well do you know your man or woman?
I'm always learning more

17.) What features attracted you to them first?
He's really funny... in a cute stumbly way

18.) Hair color?
dark brown

19.) Does he/she let you wear their pants?
ha ha yeah

20.) Do you have a shirt of hers/his that you sleep in?
yes :)

21.) Does she/he make you happy?
yes.

22.) Does she/he have any piercings?
lip

23.) Does she/he have any scars that you know of?
yeah

24.) Is she/he Outgoing or Shy?
rediculously outgoing... but sometimes suprisingly shy

25.) Does she/he sing?
sometimes

26.) Do you like her/his friends?
ehh on n off

27.) Does she/he have any tattoos?
yes

28.) Does she/he look like their mom?
a little bit

29.) Do you like her/his sisters/brothers?
yes, i wish i knew his sister better

30.) What is the most romantic date he has ever taken you on?
all of them:-)

31.) Do you have any nicknames for each other?
special friend&brigiwigi lol

32.) Do you live with this person?
nope

33.) Do you have any pets together?
a stuffed dog bamed HERBIE (tho he likes to call him herpie and i get mad)

34.) Where is this person?
at home

35.) What is your anniversary date?
uhhh we have like 3, i dunno who cares

36.) When will you guys do something next?
soon!

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 03:29:24 GMT

I have only this to say:

fuck my life in the extreme.
nothing is as it should be.

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 03:29:24 GMT

my life fell to pieces

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 19:09:46 GMT

would you stay to fight a losing battle just because you think if you COULD win it, it would have been worth fighting for?

would you love without asking anything in return (is this brave or the ultimate cowardice?)

would you play the victim, the martyr? would you play no roll at all, a prop, a shadow, a line on the floor

does it matter what you would do at all, or does it matter what I do

speak up or say nothing at all?

or drink until the words dont matter and the silence isnt cold
and you can say anything, do anything
and fall into the floor like a lover's bed
and stay there for a while
where it is safe
where it is safe
and ... warm

or would you face it sober?
and sit your fucking ass down on the cold fucking floor next to your lovers bed
and sit on the cracks in the wood and become them
and wallow in the icey silence you've created, letting it pierce tiny holes all down your spine
down his spine
where you used to drag your nails (and who are you kidding, where you'll drag them again... next time you're tanked)
and would you lie down on the floor?
and stay there for a while
out of the warmth
because its just a little more honest down here?

just honest enough
...down here

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 13:42:20 GMT

I won't let you get off on my suffering anymore.

Thu, 13 Nov 2008 03:39:13 GMT

117. starting tomorrow, new plan to reach 110 in 4 weeks and STAY THERE.

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 01:57:05 GMT

oh my fucking god.
WHATS GOING ON?//??
I can't fucking function anymore. my hair is falling out. and i threw up yesterday for no reason!
I ad to get up and run out of class and ended up vomiting outside
I think its stress related. I am highly dysfunctional.

Sat, 11 Oct 2008 00:10:21 GMT

addicted.

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 15:02:07 GMT

dinner was great :) after dinner was better :)

I don't care where this goes, right now- I'm happy

Fri, 21 Mar 2008 01:41:39 GMT

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME??? REALLY?!

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 20:10:55 GMT

when am i going to get my shit together and stop making a giant ass of myself?

survey says never.

i am so overwhelmingly frustrated with myself.

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 17:31:07 GMT

I have one thing to say: I HATE MY ENGLISH CLASS WITH MY WHOLE SOUL.

I can't deal with it its rediculous! I dont even need it! I already have the fucking credit! and my professor is totally flighty and unclear and it sucks!

someone shoot me PLEASE????

im thinking about withdrawing... anyone out there have any advice? Whats worse a terrible semester and a C-/D+ or a much wanted W ?

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 21:40:44 GMT

i do not like today
i have felt like shit since the second i woke up
and nothing is going to change that

...friends only...

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 23:25:06 GMT

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 23:33:34 GMT

hello to anyone,

i have started this new journal as a place for me to be honest with myself and with anyone who chooses to read it. for this reason this journal will be set to friends only. my formar journal was lifeorlikeit as some of you may know. if i have not informed you of this change or have not added you this may have been a mistake so feel free to leave a comment to that effect. to anyone in any community i belong to or to new friends, please comment to be added. i want to share by thoughts with you. please dont be harsh, and im asking you not to judge althought i know you will. i am asking you to allow me to confide my thoughts in you through this place and that you will not take what you read here to the attention of anyone who i did not approve to read them. i wont hate you if you decide not to hear these requests, just remember that i did ask.

i am here for anyone who needs an open ear to listen, whether or not i know you. i wanted to let everyone know that.

also, if you know me intimately as many of you do, don't be afraid to approach me about what you may read here, i love you and that why i'm letting you in.

let this be a positive change.

<3 b.